Rains....take me away, a secret place..a sweet escape

 

The weather outside has set my mood. For love and romance. While I still wait for the one to share it with, my soul breaks into bits for moments like these. When music is sound of raindrops hitting surfaces, rough & smooth, without discrimination. When trees display green like someone splashed it on, and when chirping birds are what best mornings made of. And I thought this is the best time to talk about things no one, just no one knows about me...Some of it is weird, some of it funny, and maybe a little of it even lovable? But hey, its what makes 'ME'... So would you like to know me as I know myself..Then read on.

1. Music is my food for soul. More so while driving. I often break into a jig (yes) without realizing the world around. When I find people looking at me, that's when I stop. But its my car, so its okay. Right?

2. I can't move my lips while applying lipsticks..you know like left-right-left-right. I just move the lipstick. I'm sure women would know what I'm talking about.

3. While I'm sitting completely idle, I usually look at my hands and feet. Let's call it self-admiration.

4. When in shower, with soap foam on my face and eyes, I always fear I would see a lizard when I open my eyes. It used to be a crocodile when I was a little girl.

5. I spend 'me' time either singing to myself or moon/star gazing and thinking

6. The first thing I do, after my guests leave home, is to set the cushions, couches right. I hate un-orderliness.

7. I am a list-o-holic. I list almost everything. Shopping, banking, pending jobs, bills, statements, and sometimes even questions I might want to pose to someone. Guess, its just being an efficient time manager. I never ever skip my due-dates.

8. While lying down, I tangle up my toes in one another. When bored, I try to walk on my toes in a straight line, in a cat-like fashion.

9. While doing up rooms, I often tend to walk in like an outsider to discover which place would draw attention. 

10. There's a certain way my clothes, cosmetics & perfumes line up my almirah. I can pick up the right stuff even when its pitch dark.

11. I have a penchant for collecting perfume bottles. I never throw them away. 

12. The smell of incense sticks & wet mud are most lovable. I sometimes light incense & close the room so when I enter back, just a faint zing remains.

13. I can NOT sleep with jewelry on.
14. I can not walk barefoot. Hate to get my feet dirty even if the floor is sparkling clean.

15. I always fantasize to marry only when the guy goes down on his knees, either on a beach or in a public place full of people. I hope that happens without my telling him.

16. I love being scolded at times, by close ones (strictly). Sometimes, I purposely do/say things that irk them, to let them enjoy the control. It gives me a sense of love & belonging. Beautiful.

     ..and there's a lot more...(shall I continue this...??)

Random - A life here & there...

I've always been somewhat fascinated by the English/American cinema. These days I am doing a pending, much wanted pass-time of watching movies. Lots of them. The best of it is the subtlety they portray - be it the locales, speech modes, dialogues, or emotions. What I love most is the punch it carries, wrapped smooth. It bowls me over and (you can say I've almost gone berserk for Rob Pattinson after watching Twilight & Remember Me). So freakingly gorgeous. Not just that, he's damn good at his interviews - humble and hilarious, yet classy. Guess, just the mix to make a star. Which he already is. Maybe, my love for their cinema is 'coz nothing about it is routine. Anything that you see daily around you makes it drab indeed. So am kinda done with our stuff - Bollywood. The last I saw was Kites although it still had unrequired yet indispensable mix of songs, dance, and action. But it was a good try. Actually I am not a movie buff to core and neither do I typically write about them. Nonetheless, I like sensible subtle cinema. And all of it leads me to the thought that life in that part of this big world must be experienced. That in no way implies life here is bad, but it certainly has got bore. I desire to add variety - coz I firmly believe it nourishes and enriches personality and one's aspects, perspectives to live life. Traveling is one such vocation course and every chance must be grabbed. While I am not sure when would I be able to grab one and what would take me to it - work or marriage- I would love to do it sooner than later. Sort of get out the parochial set-ups of society and live free for a while. I really don't want to be stuck at one place all of my life. There is so much to see and enjoy, even if you don't completely understand it. Freedom is relaxing. That's not to say I dont have it now. But freedom has different flavors. The expression bit conspicuously misses from our lives here. Even affectionate display is frowned upon. But what about the basic etiquettes that no one thinks about. Pushing people, never queing up anywhere, howling kids in theatre, and virtually every public manner detail. Saying please and thank you doesn't come naturally, only God knows why. Maybe, new money and affluence that has earned rotten heads.

Maybe I am sounding irrelevant here, its important I get it out. I am meeting people for the reason of settling down. And I firmly feel if you've not learnt even basic stuff of how to treat a lady, your degrees and pay packet hardly makes a difference to me. As a woman, it is important to find someone who I can not just love but respect too. And that calls for wisdom, maturity, and sensitivity. Also, I need to see that passion through. Without it, all else is a waste. Though the world around forces me to come out of my fantasy world and compromise..but somewhere my heart holds me back I still believe my kinda love would come by.